Thursday, October 18, 2007;
♥ 10/18/2007 06:53:00 AM
Cos now even i could tellThat i confused my feelingsWith the truthWhen there was me and you
I went interact today! (:Okay, ysee. Ive been ponning this internal CCA for mine, fo as long as i could rmbr. Its not that i dont wanna help those needy people, or what. Its just that ive to go thru an emtional truama everytime i go there. ): Really.I rmbr the first time i went for the meeting. Ugh, i saw the residents there. They are so so helpless. ): Serious.I feel alot for people like them. Alot. Like the charity shows, whenever they showed the patients' videos. Like on streets, ysee those people selling tissue packets. My heart just seriously goes out to all of them. ):Okay, back to the interact issue. So yeah, i tried my best to skip all the sessions. I just dont wanna go thru tht emtional truama everytime i stepped into 'Red Cross Home for the Disabled'. :'( Or whats worse, compassion fatigue. When i no logner feel so much for them anymore. I dont want that to happen! Look, I WANT TO HELP THEM. But i dunno how to. Aiyah, i dunno la. But then(to contradict myself), i kind of enjoyed myself today. Cos i felt that i did smth. (: Watching them paint, and pushing them around for a little stroll. Seeing them smile makes your heart skip a beat. Really.
Anyways, on a lighter note. I'VE GOT HSM2 (and other movies) IN MY COM. ALL THANKS TO SARAH LIM! <33>And desmond called my MRS HIPPO online just now, whe i called hi mr giraffe. ): <And kevin was talking to me online right now, retardly.
Old man are cooler than us! says:
u noe wad
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i was so tired i reply you by commenting on my own profile
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i thought i was at yr profile
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sry lah
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sry just start, not use to going sch
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haha
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hahaa. isit? isee
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poor boy
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yes
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how abt some money for this poor boy
wf a n g_ www.-rhapsody.blogspot.com =(= says:
haha. go to the strait times fund
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rmbr buskerton? we raised fund
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go demand it bac
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*back
Old man are cooler than us! says:
i have no talent
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i only can do retarded stuff
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lol. being yourself cool!
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alright!
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for you, being yourself is retarded!
wf a n g_ www.-rhapsody.blogspot.com =(= says:
):
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boo
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=)
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See! even yr display pic, you are the one holding the camera
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why?
wf a n g_ www.-rhapsody.blogspot.com =(= says:
cos im retarded!
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YAY!
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yes so yr friends bully you!
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)':
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if i nvr tell u this, u still think they are nice ppl
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lol
wf a n g_ www.-rhapsody.blogspot.com =(= says:
yeah. so sad!
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boohoo
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i am the only trustable friend you have
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so believe everything i say!
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=)
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okay!
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what shold i do now?
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buy me food
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i am hungary
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HAHAHA. HUNGARY IS A COUNTRY
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OOPS
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I LEFT THE CAPS ON
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HEY, LOOKS COOL!
Old man are cooler than us! says:
no say its retarded!
wf a n g_ www.-rhapsody.blogspot.com =(= says:
yes!
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RETARDED!
Old man are cooler than us! says:
RETARDED!
Im feeling sleepy alr, but i wanna finish watching HSM2!Tmr's there OP presentation (like finally. I seriously wanna get this over and done with), and im suppose to double/triple go thru the slides, but i wanna finish watching HSM2!Im feeling feverish, but i wanna finish watching HSM2!(I dunno what happen but) My ankle injury is acting up again, but i wanna finish watching HSM2! (Eewk, this has absolutely no connection btw.)
But you get my point. (:
Sometimes, in life. Its not a matter of 'want' or 'dont want'. Its more of a choice of 'need' or 'dont need'.Like, i dont want to let it all slip away, but i need to do so. If not, i'll be stuck on this emtional rollarcoaster ride, without finding a solution to get off.=l
&maybe things will be fine after awhile.